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LetheanSeraph
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Name: R.A.K.
Gender: Female
Interests: The SIX Loves of My Life: APIA Activism, Acting, Manga, Anime, Video games, and HARRY POTTER! :-D
Expertise: Imagining there's weird ghosts/monsters in my house, spacing out from time to time, hopefully soon-to-be acting.
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AIM:  letheanseraph
Member Since:
9/8/2002
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| No more ABC's.......no more ABC's............ | | |
| I first started this Xanga back in 2002. Every post on this site, either public or archived, has been updates and musings on everything that's happened to me for the majority of my teen years and early 20's. I can remember the changes and revelations I made in the last 10 years, and most of them after I turned 17 have been recorded here.
It recently dawned on me that I'm now in my late 20's (or close into it). I'm still considered young by some standards. I still feel very much like a kid, but I know I'm past the age where I can claim that anymore (or I'm told I shouldn't). I still feel angsty, I still have my issues, and my writings here may still be the same as they've been since I was 17.
But I know I've come a long a way. I'm a lot more sure of myself and I know what I want in life and what I want to seek out. My teen and early 20's self would not have been able to say this. I still have a lot to learn and more battles to overcome. But as far as knowing what I want and where I want to go, something that my past self has always struggled with, I think I've got that down now. That journey and struggle for the most part is over.
It feels a little bittersweet though. Because a huge part of who I used to be, that naive innocence, is now gone. And I dare say for good. I've reached my destination. And it's even more proof that I'm getting older.
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| When I voted, and as happy as I was that night because of what it meant for me and my people symbolically, I knew full well that I was choosing the lesser of the two evils. Because the only reason any politician runs for office is for power. That's how the whole world runs.
Our country is only what it is today because of the sweat, labor, and the lives of those who were here before us. Those who were forced to come here, those who's work was exploited, and those who had to be killed off because someone else felt they weren't worthy. The only reason why we're so great is because we step on everyone else in order to stay that way.
I don't think we're the greatest country in the world. I think anyone who professes that is arrogant and willfully ignorant.
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| There's now this constant feeling that I'm forgetting something, like something's missing.
The last year and a half went by too fast. I wasn't able to let it sink in and enjoy it as much as I wanted.
So many things I didn't get to do with you. Places we didn't go to. Things I wanted to share with you.
I'll save them for someone who actually wants to.
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| Is this how it always ends up or am I just stuck here with assholes?
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